So today’s Day 7 in the GE2011 campaign.

We’re halfway through the campaign with two more rallies before cooling off day and then polling day. According to Jane, the last two rallies will be concentrated on Aljunied for the final push.

We’ve worked really hard for the past 7 days, but I can’t help but feel a sense of despair. The feeling I get is that despite having carefully avoided minefields and have good speakers, come May 8th, we will wake up to a new dawn with 0 or just 1 opposition seats in Parliament.

Yes, the ground is said to be really sweet for the opposition but we’ve all seen it in 2006. Everyone expected 2006 to be the start of the digital revolution and how the youths will recapture the PAP’s narrative of what a first-world country should look like. Everyone thought that we’d get Aljunied, but on polling day, that was not to be the case.

Today, in 2011, the sentiments on the ground are almost the same. People are frustrated but how much of that frustration and support for the Workers’ Party will end up into votes?

Mr Low Thia Khiang, our secretary-general have already stepped out of his Hougang constituency to contest in Aljunied GRC and there is a likelyhood that Mr Low and the team will lose Aljunied.

If that happens, what will happen to the Workers’ Party. If Shin Leong wins Hougang, he would be the only representative in the Parliament, and by that logic, Mr Low may no longer be re-elected as the Secretary-General of the Party. What then? What’s next?

I’m pessimistic, because despite the ground sentiments, I still know alot of people who still think that PAP is doing very well and will continue to vote for them. How can we reach out to them if they have already made up their minds?

What will be my role in a Post-GE Workers’ Party where we have no say in Parliament? Will I stay or will I go? We all know the saying, “Singaporeans deserve the government they elect”. If Singaporeans decide that PAP is still the way to go and that high cost of living is a sacrifice that they are willing to make for economic prosperity, how do I fit into this whole scheme of things?

If that happens, it seems like Singapore will continue to be dominated by the PAP for the next 5, 10 or even 15 years and by that time, the PAP may have already lost its strength and with no proper opposition in power, an alternative government will be sprung out without any track record or experience in Parliament. How will we handle it then?

Should I give up the fight and just concentrate on making money like everyone else who is so comfortable with doing or should I stay on, despite knowing that Singaporeans are still not ready for ideas like ‘freedom, liberty and equality’?

It gets depressing knowing that all the work you’ve done, the countless sleepless nights, the trudging up and down the rally sites and following the candidates on the campaign trail will all come to naught (and highly likely too).

How do we then re-consolidate this?

Maybe I should just concentrate on my career. Earn the money and get out.

Its depressing. I may have depression.